Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Don't Know What You've Got...

...until it's gone.

As of about 6 hours ago, I got my computer back. I have been working from my iPad for the last 10 days, and although it's done a great job and truly been a life-saver, I'm so thankful to have my laptop back. Working on something without a mouse or a track pad can be quite challenging. Thankfully, because of a sweet Christmas present from the in-laws, I was still able to type fairly easily with my case slash keyboard. The only bummer was not being able refer back to emails for specific dates, data and info that were stored in folders on my computer. (If I've been a bit slow to respond to some of your emails, this is why). All-in-all though, it wasn't the worst thing in the world, but it also wasn't something I hope happens again in the near future.

One of the (many) reasons my computer landed in the shop was for a broken off headphone in the audio jack. For the past several months, I've been receiving audio into my left ear only and had earphones dangling from my computer most of the time. I also had to have them plugged in and spun in a certain direction to get any sound, so it was always a little adventure if I wanted to put some sound to lips moving on my computer screen. It's funny how much you come to miss good quality sound when it's not available at the drop of a hat anymore.

With that said, the first thing I did when I got my computer back was plug in my headphones and watched a YouTube video. It happened to be our engagement video (shameless plug) which I happen to think sounds better with sound coming into both ears :) I'll tell you what, I had a smile ear-to-ear when I heard that clean, crisp and loud sound come through my headphones. It's funny how something I never really thought about much in the past is now so treasured once it was compromised and/or taken away.

So here's my question, what's that thing in your life? If you're anything like me, the list can go on and on and on. It's amazing how many things in the past, and still in the present, I've taken for granted. I've taken my family for granted. My education. My friends. My God. My work. My relationships. My health.

The last one was a big one. My health was something that I never really focused on. Yeah, I took care of myself, did my treatments, went to the hospital and did the "CF thing", but I can tell you that others were way more focused on my health than I was. It got to the point however that I started to take it for granted. I was fooled (by myself) into thinking that I could do the bare minimum for the rest of my life and get away with it. After all, I felt great and was able to do anything that I wanted. It all came crashing down in January of 2009. That was the month and the year I realized how fortunate I was to have the health I had been given. That was also the month I realized how much I had taken that gift for granted. It's so easy to do.

I know try to live in such a way that the "small stuff" no longer passes me by without my appreciation. I try to remember that many things I experience are privileges and not rights. I try to remember how I felt when I almost lost everything. Most of all, I try to appreciate everything and everyone that has been brought into my life by a Man who knows me better than I will ever know myself.

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We all have those times when we take things for granted its just human nature. For me, I took for granted that "creating a family the o natural way" was going to be easy........i wont bore you with the details again as I have posted a comment on this before (yes, I am an exception to be the 3% of CF males who are fertile). We had no idea my wife was going to be basically infertile and a CF gene carrier. But through IVF and PGD our miracle is coming true. This journey has brought my wife and I even closer in our relationship!! To sum it up, the things we take for granted makes us appreciate the smaller things in life.
1 reply · active 666 weeks ago
Wow, you are certainly among the "elite" CFers that can produce children the ol' natural way. Crazy that it ended up being your wife with some fertility issues. I totally know what you're talking about with re: to growing closer throughout the IVF process. I couldn't agree more!!
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Kayser Soze · 665 weeks ago

This post resonated with me, the words "takes health for granted" and "does the bare minimum" should have been tattooed on my forehead.
It took me over 20 years to really start focusing on and accepting that I'll be here for the long haul, and because of that, I need to make some changes.
I'm working on changing the 2 things above, but it's a daily challenge.
Thanks for posting so candidly about your experience, your comments and others have helped me realize that normal life isn't so impossible, and above all, that life goes on, in spite of yourself.
:-)
1 reply · active 665 weeks ago
So thankful that you've come to realize that Kayser (good movie btw). Sounds like you're turning things around, and if there is anything I can do to help you on your journey, please let me know!

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